feel sad, missing the really nice times.
when you held me on top of your chest
my face against your neck.. the feeling of safety
warm and familiar.. feeling your pulse
the way our room was
the bomb meals we would cook together, I swear each meal got better
don’t feel as comfortable around anyone else these days
you were the closest person to me for awhile.
so this is weird and makes me tear up sometimes.
but we must move on.. nothin’s forever.
I really miss you.
Things really did have to change.. Things in my life.
Found the little stone with the dragonfly on it I bought in Jasper.
This is what probably set me off..
Remembering the reason I got it for you, how it’s supposed to be healing change.
How my efforts were never good enough to help you.
How you just can’t help people sometimes.
Hurts to the core.
I wish so bad things turned out differently.
You were so sweet to me.
Never has anyone shown me what you have.
But when things got bad.. I just can’t be in those situations anymore.